With this weekend being Mothering Sunday I thought I would tell you about one of my latest reads.
When we returned from our trip in London there on the dining table was my latest acquisition
A Mother's Story by Amanda Prowse.
I am a big fan of Amanda Prowse novels since her very first Poppy Day and I can't praise her books enough. They are always about very real subjects that some of us have dealt with in our lives.
In this her latest novel Amanda tackles the subject of Postnatal Depression, something I have had the misfortune to have experienced first hand with two of my own children. Her description of how her character Jess feels like she has a black cloak over her is something I can definitely relate to and the more I read the more I could resonate with the story. Fortunately for me my experience of the illness was not as extreme of that of the character within Amanda's book but as with most of these types of illnesses I was only a few steps away from being that person. Like any mental health related issues PND still feels like is a very taboo subject. I can remember being told by my then MIL after number one was born, that I just needed to buck up and get on with things. If only it had been that simple. At the time I felt totally alone and inadequate and a complete failure as a mum and I certainly wasn't going to broadcast the fact.
I went on to have two further children without any problem and was therefore totally floored when I got it again after number 3 was born. Fortunately I had told D about the symptoms to look out for and when he realised when number 3 was about 4 months old that I was displaying symptoms of PND he whisked me off to see the GP but even after all that time I still felt ashamed that it had happened again and he wasn't allowed to tell anyone apart from his grandmother who was very supportive even though she lived some 300 miles away from us.
I'm hoping in writing this story that Amanda will help people to recognise the symptoms within themselves and others and get the help they need. It is definitely one I would recommend for reading but warn you that a large supply of tissues may be needed.